Erika: The sun is shining and I’m full of energy! …not true…
It’s funny how the brain works, and I guess it’s not only me. My brain is speeding, but my body just won’t follow. I know it gets easier, the energy bit, if I would just start doing the things my brain wants, and you would think the brain is in charge. But no, not always. With some things you just have to tell the brain that it IS in charge, and that I did today. It took me a few hours, but I got there in the end. To the gym.
A few weeks ago I wrote about how I need to get back into the gym routine. And that went really well. For a day! But I know how good I feel when I do it, and I know I have to get back on it. I need three days to get back with the routine and to start enjoy it again, and that is not a lot. But I have to be careful… When I start and get into the gym thing I get a bit obsessive, and it always ends with my body saying “no thanks” after about three months. I know that this is how my brain works and I’m aware of it when I start, but not when I’m in it. I lose myself. This time I won’t take no for an answer.
I woke up early today to call Eric before he had to leave for work. Low sugars, but I put my gym clothes on, because today was the day, and then I went for some breakfast. I needed to fix a few things for work, so I did that. My plan was to be down at the gym at ten. Didn’t happen… Around twelve I found myself sat having a fika, still in my gym clothes, and I had given up the thought about the gym for today. “There’s a day tomorrow as well” Plus my sugars were low again! Half an hour later I texted my PT for some motivation, because it gets to me. I just sit there. I want to go, but I can’t be bothered. I’m being lazy, that’s basically it. He texted back saying that I should only go for a short session and then tell him what I had done. That was that!
At one o’clock I found myself in the gym, and I did my whole program. Weights, not as heavy as I should maybe. But I went, and now I feel all good about myself. Day 1! I now have a headache from the low sugars, but I feel fine. A small nap before work and I’ll be feeling even better!
It’s not only the gym I want to get back in routine with. I miss my hot yoga too, and I will start with that the next time I’m at home. Next time I go home… Whenever that will be! Today I booked a ticket to go and see Eric in his hometown, for the first time!!! I’m so excited!!!