Erika: Today I applied for a new job! It’s been nine years since I did that the last time, so I’m a bit rusty when it comes to interviews. And this one was an online video interview. My first, and a lot of nerves, so I don’t think it went too good. But it’s my first step towards starting school this autumn. And to put an end to our long distance relationship!
I’ve worked away for so many years and always been fine with it. And then I met Eric, and now it’s not fine anymore. It’s not only the bad internet thing, but it’s also not being able to see him every day that makes it not fine. “Not fine” doesn’t even describe it correctly. I just can’t do it.
I felt so alive when we first met, and back then we saw each other more often than now. Eric brought the old Erika back, as I’ve said before, and I love her. No worries, all smiles. Now, when we don’t have the same opportunities to meet as often, it feels like I’m heartbroken and I feel sad most of the times. I met my other half and then he got taken away, a bit, is what it feels like. We have to change that, and as soon as possible. I say this as if I was a teenager, but my life is not worth anything without him by my side.
So… Eric and I need to start to put a plan together for the future. For Eric’s move to Malmö more… And that also means that I have to get a different job. It is, kind of, my job that makes our long distance relationship a long distance relationship. We need a plan for us, and to see there is a future for us not far away. We need to get more involved with finding our first home, and preferably before school starts. We both need to find a part time job. And we need to look into what exactly Eric needs to move, paperwork wise.
I’m ready to leave this job, more than I’ve ever been before. I wish I just could quit now… This job I applied for is only extra during the summer, but would have been perfect for me before school. And to be able to come home for good before school starts is a dream. I will keep looking for other jobs, and hopefully I will find something soon. The problem is being away and not to be able to go to interviews when needed. But I did my first online interview. Badly, but at least I’ve tried it. I’m ready to follow the road to love, to “kärlek”! Xxx