Erika: I don’t really know where to start. We were doing so well, but then the distance slowly took over. That’s what I want to believe. But in fact, that’s not it.
I can tell you the long story, but that would probably bore you to death. Maybe bit by bit then. Fine! 🙂
I start today. I’m heartbroken and sad about losing the man who’s over the last year become one of my best friends, as well as (I might get a bit too dramatic here, because life goes on. But…) the love of my life. He’s made me make decisions I should have made years ago, but never really had the right support to make. For that I’m truly grateful. At the same time, it scares the hell out of me now facing it all on my own.
There’s not going to be any contact between Eric and I, and I can’t more than to respect his choice. He can’t balance his children and a girlfriend, and an ex wife, and have decided on working towards becoming a family again. Correction! Making the kids feel they belong to a family. I’ve always been fully aware that I will never come first. That’s how it is having children. They are priority uno, and rightfully so! But here is where our opinions split. Maybe it is small town mentality versus a bigger city mentality. It doesn’t matter in the end, it can’t be changed if you don’t want to.
So here I am. Typing away, which I’ve decided to keep doing. It’s still about crazy love, so I also decided on keeping the blog name. Call it therapy, but it helps me. I’ve always loved to write and I know how much it helps me to clear my thoughts. To get it off my chest and to empty my troubled mind. The magic in written words. And who knows what the future holds? I’m a fighter and a believer, but most importantly, I have a strong psyche that can take me through anything.